The Power of Pain

Pain is a territory I’m very familiar with but there are two types of pain. Good pain and bad pain and believe me it is important to know so that you don’t suppress or rush to relief yourself anytime you feel pain.

Pain can be described as an unwanted and sometimes unexpected emotion that disrupts the peace of any process or thing.

Good pain leads positively while bad pain has no true home. Examples of good pain are discomfort during workouts, punishment/fines for bad behavior, hurt from human beings etc. while bad pain could be heartbreak, accidents, disappointments and more.

There are ways to manage both to your benefit but try to avoid bad pain as much as necessary because it ruins our innocence and robs us of our livelihood.

Managing Good Pain

1. Recognize the source and go into self observation mode to understand why the pain is present so you don’t miss the message.

2. Master it. Study about it, do your research.

3. Reinforce it to push you towards short and long term goals.

4. Make it routine if possible.

Managing Bad Pain

1. Depending on your mental and emotional literacy, lean towards and understanding what is really hurting. Sometimes there is either deeper meaning/reason.

2. Self correction i.e. stop with the over-the-top expectations of others etc.

3. Don’t be too cautious and learn discernment.

I hope this gives you more insight and teaches you that pain is not a sign to stop, exhaustion is – so on that note, allow pain push you forward 🖤

Hugs,

LovingAdeola.

OUFIT DETAILS;

JUMPSUIT – ASOS

PUMPS – FOREVER21

BAG – HM

HAIR – CROWNSNLASHES

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August Blues – I got played?

Ile saw me at a restaurant while I was on a date with someone else. We both knew I was wasting my time on that date because once it was over, he made sure he got my number while his elderly uncle cheered him on. Lol!

I enjoyed the chase but played hard to get for a little while. I got to know him and found him genuine, honest and hardworking so we hung out for a while and had a good time. His friends and I got along well but he had so much drama from a previous relationship he was getting out of.

I didn’t feel at ease with it so I backed off and eventually stopped seeing him. Some months later since he was blocked on every platform I could think off, his persistence led him to send me a cashapp (money transfer app) message saying please call me.

I was hollering!

I replied back and we started talking and catching up – he was single and just working…it was summer so I decided to just have fun with it – parties, kickbacks, weekend trips etc.

He started trying to be serious and I had some concerns I had never voiced so I kept it cool for a while.

To respect privacy, I won’t go into detail but I wasn’t sure if the jobs he claimed he did were his only source of income based on what I saw…

I was sure something was off so I slowly weaned him off and it was tough until God made it easy.

His ex sent a doctors note stating that she was three months pregnant and that’s when reality kicked in for both of us – I knew I made the right decision then and there.

My mood was suddenly: I’m good luv, enjoy.

It stung a bit but so far so good, I’m cutting my loses and not looking back. No such thing as being friends – heal away so that it doesn’t bleed into your next relationship.

It’s taking some time but that’s the gift of life 🖤

PLOT TWIST!

After deciding to move on above, it was too late. I had already caught feelings.

So I gave it time and attention without really wanting it. How much more damage did I do? Too much.

He was showing signs of being conflicted and felt like he was under pressure. It made sense – someone is pregnant for you!

He told me he didn’t want the baby and wanted to be with me but it didn’t feel right. Luckily, I had a vacation I planned a while ago so I left for Jamaica.

A week later I returned and he proposed while I was away which I challenged + in less than twenty four hours, it turned out he had proposed to his ex and started planning a wedding.

I was so pained!

I knew I was not a player and had no business lingering in this situationship but damn!

Shed a tea or two but I’m good now,

Detaching is my thing I guess?

He further explained it was all fake and that it wasn’t real but he wanted to play along with her until he could get her to abort the baby.

I realized how cruel he could be and will not be an ally to malicious behavior so goodbye Maradona. Get your life!

Lessons Learned here?

1. Don’t linger at all if they do not feel like what you want.

2. Date with a low expectations and do not project too much into the future to avoid major disappointment, simply get to know the person.

3. Discern as always and never doubt your gut for anything!

4. Speak up for yourself – let no one think you are stupid or need them.

5. Don’t doubt yourself after you’ve made a decision, see it through and be firm with your decision. It’s not easy balancing emotion with logic but it is possible!

Sincerely,

Lovingadeola.

Q3 and happy blog anniversary! Adversity where?!

Hey loves!

2018 has been a class for me but I’m feeling better daily and I am excited for the future. Right after Easter, my career was at this challenging place where I almost forgot why I chose to work there. I was tired and burnt out from not communicating effectively and fearing unemployment so I started to overdo everything.

Little did I know it was all a test. Yes, it was a challenge but there was more to come. After some time, a family member visited and I had been nervous for months about their stay but it came and it passed.

It was not my favorite encounter but I needed to meet this person now that I was more secure in who I was. I had questions from childhood and inconsistencies I needed to clarify as well so it made it easier. Only problem was I expected too much and got hurt.

Blaming myself only slowed down getting over my mistake so I snapped out of it until one Sunday evening in May while trying to relax with friends, colleagues started to text me because apparently, there was a flood.

I freaked out, got on the news and saw my street underwater with cars crashing into each other and people looking for safety. I was in shock for a while but got to the scene the next morning and the roads were closed.

As I walked around hoping for answers, I got a call that a family member had left us. So I sat down immediately because i felt super lightheaded and even more shocked.

I felt deep pain and frustration but couldn’t cry so I went to encourage family.

I stayed in an inn for a month and it smelled so bad and was not safe but it worked only for me to get taught another lesson. My car engine knocked one morning in late June and since it was an old model I didn’t think replacing the engine made sense. Simply replacing the engine was three thousand dollars. Talk less of the other issues the car had which brought the balance to seven thousand and some change.

So I was homeless, immobile and hurting. Unfortunately, I strive for self reliance so I felt even more helpless.

PLOT TWIST.

It’s not even mid July and God has really showed me that he loves me so how dare I be selfish or ungrateful? After all, the flood happened to other people and I have been a commuter before. So what exactly is the issue?

While all this happened, I felt stress, Loss of security/stability i.e. home, inconvenience, unexpected expenses and for sure lost time.

As I reflected on all these events, I realized that I wasted a lot of my time on things that did nothing for me and God has started by removing the material things that are distracting me.

To top it off, I’m doing amazing at work and getting tougher by the day. I try to walk to the office most times which is great for my mind and body. I’ve made new friends kind enough to host me in this time of need with such unconditional love.

I’ve strengthened new and almost-lost relationships & I’m humbled because I almost forgot what it felt like not to have something, I’m more kind towards others as I never forget people who treated me kindly these past weeks without knowing all I had going on!

Looking forwards to sharing more victory soon!

Thank you for reading and believing in me loves.

Female friendships: What I’ve Learnt!

Hey girls!

I hope you are well and this post hits home like it did for me. In my life, I’ve been blessed with beautiful and strong female friends that pull me up and keep me grounded.

Friend – Oreoluwa Adeniji, Model.

You will see pictures of them in this post as I magically shot pictures with a few of them to create fashion looks that will inspire you today!

Anyway….

The next series of points are gems that I have learnt from my female friendships on how I keep the relationships alive, peaceful and fruitful;

Friend – Ronke Raji, Influencer

1. Honesty at all times. One lie just leads to another and think of your friends as your supporters. Another set of parameters that God has placed in your life to help you live and make better decisions. Telling one lie and then another about anything is a recipe for disaster.

2. Pace yourself with these friendships. I personally tend to keep to myself if I meet a female and hear any traces of lack of self love because I know they are not happy. Its different if they are asking for help but I don’t go around thinking everybody needs helps, that’s disrespectful.

Friend – Akhila, Finance Associate

There is a certain discernment I’ve been blessed with so I’m just picky about who I let in my life because if you turn out to really be negative then I’ve done a disservice to self by not protecting my peace.

When you meet new females, take it slow. It’s not only with men you do this with. It’s with any relationship – earn it so that you can respect it and it can flourish from there.

3. Handling insecurities among women is also tricky but doable. One tip we are all flowers, no rose outshines the other. You may all just not be on the same confidence level which is okay. If you respect each other, then you know how to handle yourself when one is not feeling as great as the other. Pull her up, remind her that her beauty is unique and with time through self love, she will feel better.

4. Career support: Women, do you understand that we are powerful? So when you see another woman trying to find her purpose, help her within your capacity. Don’t over extend yourself as that ends in resentment. Just be positive, uplifting and cheerlead as they grow. If in different industries, you can actually get involved with each other’s profession and learn something new! Some times you may find that you have inspired your friend to chase their dreams as well.

The issue comes when you get in a competitive mindset and start to get ugly with it – so unnecessary.

5. Respect their spouses. Do not get nosy or intrude in their lives! If they ever need to talk to you, and need your input, they will ask. So don’t go offering unwarranted opinion on your idea of what love/dating should look like. Bye now!

6. During fights, maintain respect and give space to reflect. We women are very emotional and that’s okay but we need to be sensitive to each other’s feelings.

Happy Thursday love!

OMG! January is over!

Hey loves!

We are in the first quarter of the year and so far so good I am well! I hope you are too so I’m checking in to provide some lifestyle tips on what to do to ensure that you are on the right path towards achieving your goals this year.

Tip 1.

Are you in sync with your religion and spirituality?

If no, why not and if yes, that’s awesome! Keep up the good work.

Tip 2.

Full body Physical.

When was your last check up? Have you ever gotten a pap smear girls? Do you know your BMI? Do you eat healthy?

Tell the truth, hahaha!

Tip 3.

How are your energy levels?

You really do get what you put out there so if it’s low, chances are you don’t have much fun or may not be happy. Try to figure out why so you can exude positivity.

Tip 4.

Have you been preserving yourself?

I learnt this the hard way due to graduate school, blogging and a finance career. I’ve had to sacrifice some stuff such as partying, a few relationships, dating and to an extent traveling! Sometimes you really need to do nothing and just relax. The benefits are endless, just google them.

Tip 5.

How is your credit/financial health?

Are you in debt? Do you earn as much as you deserve? How are your savings?

Check on the bag even while securing it!

Until next time loves 🖤

Outfit Details

Top – Asos

Pants – Forever 21 Plus

Shoes and Bag – Payless

Green lipstick – Dr M. by Colorpop and Midnight Wasabi by Fenty Beauty

Photographer – Ronke Raji

5 Long term effects of failed relationships

In my experience here are 5 common effects of a cycle of failed relationships;

1. Lack of self confidence and struggle with self love.

2. Trust issues in future relationships if healing is not achieved.

3. Lack of physical preservation (constant sexual relations).

4. Emotional exhaustion and psychological noise.

5. Disconnection with faith and almost joy as it will take a lot of strength to understand that the experiences were not God neglecting you but lessons you had to learn.

Thanks for reading loves!

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OUTFIT DETAILS

Dress – Asos

Slippers – Payless

Bag – Justfab

5 quick tips on recovery after rejection

Blazer – Lane Bryant

Skirt – Lane Bryant

Boots – Forever 21

Hey love!

See below for five quick tips on dealing with rejection as I know it can be challenging at times;

– Pray for strength to understand why it happened and learn the lesson from the experience.

– Speak in affirmations for a duration of time depending on your comfort level until your confidence is restored.

– Exercise to relieve mental stress and be in good spirits.

– Communicate. Share the experience with a close friend and rub minds on what happened if you need to.

– Redirect that negative energy and use it to do something beneficial for yourself. Instead of wasting your time wondering why some guy or firm won’t ef with you.

Try these out and let me know if they work for you doll.

Love you loads,

Addie.