Q3 and happy blog anniversary! Adversity where?!

Hey loves!

2018 has been a class for me but I’m feeling better daily and I am excited for the future. Right after Easter, my career was at this challenging place where I almost forgot why I chose to work there. I was tired and burnt out from not communicating effectively and fearing unemployment so I started to overdo everything.

Little did I know it was all a test. Yes, it was a challenge but there was more to come. After some time, a family member visited and I had been nervous for months about their stay but it came and it passed.

It was not my favorite encounter but I needed to meet this person now that I was more secure in who I was. I had questions from childhood and inconsistencies I needed to clarify as well so it made it easier. Only problem was I expected too much and got hurt.

Blaming myself only slowed down getting over my mistake so I snapped out of it until one Sunday evening in May while trying to relax with friends, colleagues started to text me because apparently, there was a flood.

I freaked out, got on the news and saw my street underwater with cars crashing into each other and people looking for safety. I was in shock for a while but got to the scene the next morning and the roads were closed.

As I walked around hoping for answers, I got a call that a family member had left us. So I sat down immediately because i felt super lightheaded and even more shocked.

I felt deep pain and frustration but couldn’t cry so I went to encourage family.

I stayed in an inn for a month and it smelled so bad and was not safe but it worked only for me to get taught another lesson. My car engine knocked one morning in late June and since it was an old model I didn’t think replacing the engine made sense. Simply replacing the engine was three thousand dollars. Talk less of the other issues the car had which brought the balance to seven thousand and some change.

So I was homeless, immobile and hurting. Unfortunately, I strive for self reliance so I felt even more helpless.

PLOT TWIST.

It’s not even mid July and God has really showed me that he loves me so how dare I be selfish or ungrateful? After all, the flood happened to other people and I have been a commuter before. So what exactly is the issue?

While all this happened, I felt stress, Loss of security/stability i.e. home, inconvenience, unexpected expenses and for sure lost time.

As I reflected on all these events, I realized that I wasted a lot of my time on things that did nothing for me and God has started by removing the material things that are distracting me.

To top it off, I’m doing amazing at work and getting tougher by the day. I try to walk to the office most times which is great for my mind and body. I’ve made new friends kind enough to host me in this time of need with such unconditional love.

I’ve strengthened new and almost-lost relationships & I’m humbled because I almost forgot what it felt like not to have something, I’m more kind towards others as I never forget people who treated me kindly these past weeks without knowing all I had going on!

Looking forwards to sharing more victory soon!

Thank you for reading and believing in me loves.

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Whitney Houston

Hey beautiful!

So last week my mind was bent on seeing Whitney (the movie) and it was worth it. There are some celebrities that seem relatable in a sense and most times I’m drawn to them. In Whitney’s case, it was a strong feeling.

After watching it, I encourage you to and will like to share some lessons inspired by the movie;

1. Most talented individuals know they have talent from an early age. It takes some form of cultivation and support to push and ignite it. Parents are usually the first to notice.

2. A mothers love can change a child’s life.

3. Discipline is never easy but necessary for change.

4. When a family starts to fall apart, the children suffer the most especially if in their formative years. Once you start becoming an adult though, I encourage you to get help to heal because no matter who you are, it does something to you.

5. Be careful of the company you keep. They are choices so pick wisely. Friends are not safety nets – you should be dependent yet independent.

6. Sexual fluidity is a thing. Be careful because curiosity can kill a cat. If your mind is not strong you might be confused about your sexual identity. Sexual trauma should also be dealt with if any i.e rape, molestation etc.

7. Money comes and goes. Do not let it define you.

8. Take care of family every chance you CAN.

9. The same way your friends matter, the person you chose to spend life with matters even more. They will either pull you up or pull you down.

10. Parents, prioritize your children and if not possible, find a way. They are the future and will honor you.

11. No matter where you find yourself, study the culture and try to adapt without losing yourself. It could be a new country, job etc.

12. Drugs….enough said.

13. Jealousy is a scary vice that makes the jealous individual ugly. If not careful, it can lead one to do evil things.

14. Failure is an event and not a definition of who you are.

15. Codependency is not love.

16. Be supportive but do not carry those around you be it family or friends.

17. Holding onto pain, eats you up and never the other. So your reaction to everything matters.

18. Death is inevitable. Parents prepare your children for it. It really is your responsibility. Don’t breed overly dependent and sheltered children.

19. Fix your childhood trauma or any after childhood. Deal with them, don’t suppress them and “fake move on”. They will creep up on you and can ruin your life. By childhood trauma it could be mental illness, molestation (which makes you question your sexuality), bullying, family divorce etc.

20. Shame is a powerful emotion. Empathy kills it so open up to safe loved ones.

You can be alive yet a zombie,

Just roaming earth,

Looking for yourself,

Not feeding anyone,

Running away from and to yourself,

Not knowing who you really are,

Money, people and love may be around you,

But as a zombie you won’t be able to feel or see these things and their value.

Take it easy my girl 🖤

OUTFIT DETAILS:

Top and shorts – Forever 21

Hair – Ali express

Fanny pack – Aldo

Mellow Yellow, Mid May Madness.

Hey love!

How are you? I’ve had a lot going on in the last couple of weeks at work and mentally. My mum is also visiting in a week and I’ve been excited yet nervous. I haven’t seen her in about three years and I can’t wait to see her and catch up on life.

Work is kicking my butt but I’m up for the challenge. I’m learning that there is something positive about being uncomfortable, it’s like you become stronger and feel encouraged to keep going. Sadly, it seems like I need to relax on my need for perfection because I’m getting burnt out almost weekly and it will not be sustainable in the long run. May has started with me taking a step back after weeks of intense work and mental pressure. The only thing that has kept me sane is working out daily after work because I get to release some stress and stay fit. It also helps that it keeps my mind balanced and spirits up.

Anyway, I’m grateful for everything happening right now because I am going with the flow of life, I’m used to controlling everything but to just live, that is a hinderance.

What am I doing differently?

– Praying more often.

– Trying to drink more water.

– Not forcing connections.

– Staying still.

– Equating emotion vs logic.

– Keeping to myself (I try to be social but lately, I’m uninterested).

– I find that my job does make me happy even though I struggle sometimes, I always win. My ego wouldn’t have it any other way.

– I admire my boobs from time to time.

– Retail therapy.

– Enjoy dating.

– Meditate about life and what to blog about.

Over and out 🖤

The importance of mastering detachment

Hey loves!

Detachment is described as disconnecting from a relationship, feeling, thought or assumption.

For clarity, I am referencing emotional detachment as it is a skill I am currently self training on. Believe me when I tell you my self love journey is no joke because I am always learning and changing (growing).

Lately, I had a negative experience I couldn’t shake off for a while. Matter of fact, the person that got me angered could feel it but I carried on with a horrible mood that day then learnt something great after talking to a mentor.

Emotional detachment from any situation is an early step that boosts ones chances of making logical decisions. When emotions get in the way, our judgement is flawed which usually leads to biased decision making. In this case, I could have saved my energy and realized my reaction was my power.

I’m usually good with that but like I said practice makes perfect and this is a required life skill that we should try to learn so that one can leverage this when needed.

Four benefits are;

– Lower chances of sabotaging situations.

– Better Judgement calls.

– Clarity even when emotions run high!

– Quick decision making skills

Thanks for reading love!

YOUR TURN to share – do you practice this? Have you ever had to detach? Talk to me.

OMG! January is over!

Hey loves!

We are in the first quarter of the year and so far so good I am well! I hope you are too so I’m checking in to provide some lifestyle tips on what to do to ensure that you are on the right path towards achieving your goals this year.

Tip 1.

Are you in sync with your religion and spirituality?

If no, why not and if yes, that’s awesome! Keep up the good work.

Tip 2.

Full body Physical.

When was your last check up? Have you ever gotten a pap smear girls? Do you know your BMI? Do you eat healthy?

Tell the truth, hahaha!

Tip 3.

How are your energy levels?

You really do get what you put out there so if it’s low, chances are you don’t have much fun or may not be happy. Try to figure out why so you can exude positivity.

Tip 4.

Have you been preserving yourself?

I learnt this the hard way due to graduate school, blogging and a finance career. I’ve had to sacrifice some stuff such as partying, a few relationships, dating and to an extent traveling! Sometimes you really need to do nothing and just relax. The benefits are endless, just google them.

Tip 5.

How is your credit/financial health?

Are you in debt? Do you earn as much as you deserve? How are your savings?

Check on the bag even while securing it!

Until next time loves 🖤

Outfit Details

Top – Asos

Pants – Forever 21 Plus

Shoes and Bag – Payless

Green lipstick – Dr M. by Colorpop and Midnight Wasabi by Fenty Beauty

Photographer – Ronke Raji

Top Five Reasons people are not open in relationships

Hey loves!

I was on the bus back from NY and asked my brother what to blog on as I had just finished another draft and had nothing.

Minutes go by and he sends me a brief mini rant about people who aren’t open in relationships, not while they’re dating but when they are exclusive as there is a difference.

I’ve dated and committed to such personalities before and honestly it takes time to open up to another person. To make it even more challenging, it’s only rewarding when it happens naturally. You can push but with pacing, patience and listening, you can get to know a person and understand them.

My millennials, I figure you are my audience here because I am worried for us. While marriage is not on my bucket list for personal reasons, I think the Bible set the tone for what marriage should be and being open is one of the requirements as the couple merges to become one.

If a lover is not open, here could be why;

1. They are not at peace with themselves and probably have not self nurtured to achieve maturity enough to be open when they want.

When a person has a lot going on or might really be immoral, they tend to keep to themselves as they have a lot to hide. When I was wild, I never spoke a word and now I’m sure when old classmates read my posts, they are confused. They are like huh she seemed quiet and bored. Boy, oh boy – I was always on something, going somewhere, with someone.

No fucking peace of mind. I mean none – so tell me what I wanna tell lover boy? You better carry and go or stay and be mute 😂

2. They do not trust themselves or you.

Laughing already because without trust there can never be full openness. I mean, so comfortable that your spouse understands you without even talking.

I currently have friendships like that with my girls and I tell one that I hope my husband if I end up with one is as open as we are with each other. I want to tell him why I don’t feel like going to church today, I want to tell him my past so he knows who I am and how I became, I don’t want to have to tell him to be thoughtful because when open you are in synch with your partner. The benefits are amazing so if not ready to be open but you want love, go back to your inner self, check in and then try again.

3. Immaturity – enough said here.

4. Self-reliance syndrome.

I know because I struggle with being open, my life will have to get written. When? I do not know darling but it will be so because I have seen quite a bit and by the time I leave earth I may not have shared all as life is not guaranteed!

With such people, they are so hard on themselves that they strive for independence and self nurturing. Since I’m one of them, it can be hell I tell you. I know because of this reason I suck at making friends and when I do it takes a lot to get through. Some may disagree because I’m super warm and don’t mind sharing little things but um it’s all a front, once you leave me you may find that I let you do all the talking and didn’t even say much. With my nurturing personality, I probably talk about your well being and keep it moving.

Side note – Don’t try to push things or force things out of me, that will end the relationship instantly. Savage but with a sweet side 😉

5. Finally! Intentions are another reason people do not open up.

Depending on your upbringing and experiences, you should know life can be wicked. The strong ones just breathe positivity and find strength in how much they love themselves but people’s intention really contribute to setting the tone of a relationship. Are you trying to get to know me? Why? To date? Sleep with me? Waste my time? Fish for information? Make conversation? What?

How about we all relax and just have fun and not be so closed. If you love you, it’s easier to be open as you become unapologetic about who you are.

At that point, you mean what you say and you tell only what you want. If you don’t want to reveal anything, you won’t.

Let’s not make it seem like we’re obligated to be open. You’re not but if you want true love, learn to be open to the right people, (God first) in the right places, and under the right circumstances.

It’s another choice YOU have to make so choose right.

Until next time my loves,

Addie 🖤

Outfit Details.

Dress – Asos

Shoes – Justfab (I added the puffy shoe clips which are from Aldo)

5 quick tips on recovery after rejection

Blazer – Lane Bryant

Skirt – Lane Bryant

Boots – Forever 21

Hey love!

See below for five quick tips on dealing with rejection as I know it can be challenging at times;

– Pray for strength to understand why it happened and learn the lesson from the experience.

– Speak in affirmations for a duration of time depending on your comfort level until your confidence is restored.

– Exercise to relieve mental stress and be in good spirits.

– Communicate. Share the experience with a close friend and rub minds on what happened if you need to.

– Redirect that negative energy and use it to do something beneficial for yourself. Instead of wasting your time wondering why some guy or firm won’t ef with you.

Try these out and let me know if they work for you doll.

Love you loads,

Addie.