2018 has been a class for me but I’m feeling better daily and I am excited for the future. Right after Easter, my career was at this challenging place where I almost forgot why I chose to work there. I was tired and burnt out from not communicating effectively and fearing unemployment so I started to overdo everything.
Little did I know it was all a test. Yes, it was a challenge but there was more to come. After some time, a family member visited and I had been nervous for months about their stay but it came and it passed.
It was not my favorite encounter but I needed to meet this person now that I was more secure in who I was. I had questions from childhood and inconsistencies I needed to clarify as well so it made it easier. Only problem was I expected too much and got hurt.
Blaming myself only slowed down getting over my mistake so I snapped out of it until one Sunday evening in May while trying to relax with friends, colleagues started to text me because apparently, there was a flood.
I freaked out, got on the news and saw my street underwater with cars crashing into each other and people looking for safety. I was in shock for a while but got to the scene the next morning and the roads were closed.
As I walked around hoping for answers, I got a call that a family member had left us. So I sat down immediately because i felt super lightheaded and even more shocked.
I felt deep pain and frustration but couldn’t cry so I went to encourage family.
I stayed in an inn for a month and it smelled so bad and was not safe but it worked only for me to get taught another lesson. My car engine knocked one morning in late June and since it was an old model I didn’t think replacing the engine made sense. Simply replacing the engine was three thousand dollars. Talk less of the other issues the car had which brought the balance to seven thousand and some change.
So I was homeless, immobile and hurting. Unfortunately, I strive for self reliance so I felt even more helpless.
It’s not even mid July and God has really showed me that he loves me so how dare I be selfish or ungrateful? After all, the flood happened to other people and I have been a commuter before. So what exactly is the issue?
While all this happened, I felt stress, Loss of security/stability i.e. home, inconvenience, unexpected expenses and for sure lost time.
As I reflected on all these events, I realized that I wasted a lot of my time on things that did nothing for me and God has started by removing the material things that are distracting me.
To top it off, I’m doing amazing at work and getting tougher by the day. I try to walk to the office most times which is great for my mind and body. I’ve made new friends kind enough to host me in this time of need with such unconditional love.
I’ve strengthened new and almost-lost relationships & I’m humbled because I almost forgot what it felt like not to have something, I’m more kind towards others as I never forget people who treated me kindly these past weeks without knowing all I had going on!
Looking forwards to sharing more victory soon!
Thank you for reading and believing in me loves.